Listening to the soundtrack of the movie Moonlight gives me a feeling of exploration and deep introspection. It gives me the feeling that I’m examining a situation or an event, an image in my head, in slow motion; being the invisible person that observes everything without anyone present in that situation noticing. Whenever I imagine of something dramatic or when I want to over-emphasize a feeling that otherwise would be fleeting or just another feeling I find myself imagining things happening slowly, in slow motion, giving me time to visualise the way the light hits the subjects in an image in my head, a memory, savouring the moment, making it important, giving it substance and weight and in general being stuck in that moment of time in my head, in a vacuum, while time passes by, while the world keeps on moving, things changing without missing a beat. What is this urge to select a moment and make it dramatic, a myth? What is this need to opt out from the reality in front of my eyes and through the help of some music through my noise-isolating earphones escape into sadness or happiness, into a parallel universe where feelings are strong, where something of importance is happening, where small details are noticed and enlarged, specs become planets in orbit reflecting the sunlight in a grandiose way. Is it imagination? Sure. Is it the world that an introvert lives in and is reserved only to that introvert? Makes sense. Is it for the creative, the romantic, the nostalgic, the person who calls upon a muse to be inspired? Why not. It can be definitely all the above but there are times where being a bit cynical and realistic saves the day. Specifically it saves your time, the only resource you have that is truly finite in the most impactful way possible.
Being bored, not being involved in meaningful activities, not developing meaningful relationships and in general not covering all the human needs; the brain sparking and activating on all cylinders; is also something that can bring the need to create these parallel universes where importance and emphasis is given to things not worth your attention. Things that are the resistance, the procrastination itself, the excuse for why your life is not what it should be, the reason why you over-rely on your imagination to shed some light and colour in your seemingly boring life. While this can be a useful mechanism, it can also be an easy way out. We all have the power of making decisions at any given time. Does anyone really know what the best decision at that point in time is; what is the absolute best alternative to wasting too much time in day-dreaming and thinking of what-ifs? Probably not. But we all definitely know the way to it. We know that even though we don’t know what the future holds and hence which decision is most strategically sound, I’m doing my best at this specific point in time, with my current knowledge, experience and best self I can muster, to do my best, to stir myself towards what seems now the best direction for me. We all have this power and it’s okay to reserve excuses for our lazy days, our days of doubt and uncertainty, where the world is moving too fast, when the variables and data are too much to comprehend. Accepting the existence of weak days allows us to know that they are only days that come but will eventually go, it’s a cycle that everyone goes through. There’s no time for superheros but there’s time for real people that live life in a human way; doing their best, growing in spirit and mind every day, making one step every day on a journey of good faith towards the unknown destination.
We all have the power to dream and inspire ourselves, think of otherworldy realities and universes. However, let’s not forget our inner self, the self that is who surfaces when you go to sleep, when no clothes and brands, images and sounds cloud your true self, the image of you in your own head. Let’s feed that self, let’s acknowledge it’s power of making decisions at any given time, decisions that even though imperfect are as perfect as possible. Let’s acknowledge that that self will not betray you, that it knows what to decide for your best interest, for your growth, for your well-being, for your overall development. That is a true superpower; believing in our ability to know the true north when co-ordinates are nowhere to be found.
Awenesty. 