What is this blog about, what sparked the name awenesty and why the play with the two words? These are some questions that i need to clear out for myself as well so i’ll go ahead and attempt that. I recently graduated from my masters and i’m in the process of finding a job as the unsaid rules of society dictate. You see there are steps that you follow from the day you enter the educational system and i’m so glad those steps are finally over as i’m not planning to follow any phd route that would be the next logical step when it comes to academia. Now, am i truly free to make up my own mind? To choose from any type of options and opportunities or is that not really the case? These are some of the big questions that roll in my head as they would also roll in the heads of people who while living their life, make use of the question why very often, especially when faced with pre-made choices. Why this? Why that? Why yes? Why not? You see, i believe freedom is a beatiful and terrifying thing at the same time. One way to achieve true freedom of mind is to ask honest, intuitive questions. While this process can be empowering, it can also be terrrifying, for to reach empowerment one has to face his demons and the more you ask those honest questions, the more you play with fire, the more that fire becomes familiar and, in time it becomes essential to achieve a true self, the true you. How strong does someone feel after facing his own demons, after having a discussion, understanding them, becoming familiar and understanding the reasons why they were put there in the first place. As with everything practice makes perfect and so with asking questions; find your own ‘million dollar question’s and realise in turn that they are priceless. The truth lies within, you are your own enemy, you do it to yourself and other pop culture expressions have one thing in common: you. The self, the identity, the personality of the human being.
Is this ‘first world problem’-worthy as internet memes would suggest? I think while my life experiences and struggles can be considered of the first world, the process of playing with this fire can apply to anyone. So back to ‘Awenesty’. I guess now that you’ve reached this point it makes more sense: asking honest questions to explore your own self, your true self. Reaching that at first uncharted territory is awesome; is showering you with the feeling of awe. How could all this information be within me? How could joy and sorrow be locked inside my head? How could i not make use of this to understand myself better, to get to know who i am, what drives me, what makes me happy and which are the ‘mysterious ways’ my mind works in? I like what awe and honesty do to me so i decided to put them together and see for how long they can coexist creatively, and what they can bring in this web-space. I would encourage anyone: explore yourself, don’t be afraid by what you see, demythify fears and come back stronger, calmer and more ready to live life more happily in a more fulfilling manner.
I encourage anyone to reach me and share with me explorations of self, narratives of awe and honesty and let’s make the Awenesty blog an environment for anyone who thinks that finding yourself is the way to freedom.
Awenesty. 